Detoxing from alcohol isn’t fun, this week has been up and down and all over the place with low moods, I’ve been irritable and suffered from dreadful headaches, nausea, sleep improved as the week went on but I had some very bad dreams, nightmares in fact. I’ve counted to 10 a lot waiting for a moment of rage to pass and screamed into a pillow once and chatted to myself in the mirror on occasion and told myself to stay calm and chanting, ” I’m strong, I’m happy, I’m healthy”, even though at times I felt crazy, a real bunch of emotions to deal with in one week.
The Positives are far greater
Not at any point have I regretted my decision to stop drinking. The last time I did the 100 day challenge I wish I hadn’t started but this time I know it’s the right thing and feels more real this time.
I have done my yoga every day which wouldn’t have happened if I’d stuck with the bottle. My body aches a little but I’m fine with that, it shows I’m working my body. I just want to practice, practice, practice.
I’ve mentioned in previous blogs that my partner is setting up his own business and he has spent a lot more time concentrating on that, designing and writing blurb for his website and all because he is doing a dry January. Stuff happens when the alcohol is removed.
Normally I work the weekends but I had this one off which was just wonderful having all 4 of us together. I had a massage which was great, and I have another one booked in 3 weeks time. We walked the beach and made sandcastles.
We took the girls swimming which was super fun and I made all their favourite foods, like super mummy’s blueberry and chocolate pancakes for breakfast drenched in maple syrup. I cooked a roast dinner, and isn’t cooking sober so much easier, tidier and tastier, I cooked Christmas dinner whist drinking glass after glass of bubbles so by the time it was cooked and dished up I didn’t even want to eat it!
I recently celebrated my 40th birthday and was given a spa day from my work colleagues, such a lovely gift as they said it would revive me after all the sleepless nights the girls recently had from being poorly. I can’t wait to get booked in. Another treat I have approaching is lunch with old friends at a swanky restaurant on the water, a sober lunch made easy as 2 out of the 4 of us dining are pregnant.
I think rewards and treats are a useful sober tool to use as it’s always nice to have something to look forward to and make us feel good. I also have a car MOT and service to fork out for which is a bit dull!
My old friend Anxiety
Anyone heard of Holy Basil? I hadn’t until last week, it’s been recommended to me for my anxiety which has increased a little so far this year but will taper off the further I go with the sober thing I imagine and also the fact I am consuming far less caffeine. I have started to take the Holy Basil everyday to see it it helps, it’s tastes foul though, it really repeats on me when the capsule has burst.
One of my favourite gifts this Christmas came from my mum in law, it’s a tea-iere by Jing. How have I not had one of these before, it’s great for my fresh mint teas, and fusing ginger and lemons. She also gave me some Green Tea, I have never really liked Tea I have always been a coffee fiend, my Mum started me young on the caffeine, she used to bring me a milky cup in bed to get me up and ready for school from the age of 8, shocking! On one of the mornings this past week where i suffered a headache I had just a little green tea and it helped ease the pain. It’s an acquired taste I think, but it was ok. I’ll try it again.
So all in all a great first week, I feel positive and teary all at the same time but really glad I’m here, in this sober place with my gorgeous loving family.