I have left the children at home with Daddy for a couple of days whilst I stay with my Mum who had a small procedure on her heart yesterday.
Mum is doing well and is tucked up in bed whilst I am being reminded of how quiet life is without the little people around, It’s a strange thing being able to hear yourself think, I’ve had a coffee, eaten breakfast, and showered all very peacefully. No tears, tantrums or negotiating required. Dad on the other hand is having a very different experience at home getting out the door, his text up dates are making me chuckle.
I can’t remember the last time I sat still, sun coming through the window and all I can hear is the clock ticking tocking. Actually the clock is a bit annoying now I’ve noticed it!
On the other hand though I feel rather sick. Since my last blog my health has been rubbish. I came home from holiday with the flu, the holiday itself was the best though.
We went on forest walks everyday, my eldest rode a pony for the first time, we saw deer from our living room and had a pond at the bottom of the garden with ducks. Squirrels and little birds came to the pateo to eat the oats and fruit the children left out for them. It was idyllic, tranquil and sunny.
I’ve mentioned in previous posts that I eat a wheat free diet I have done for about 4/5 years since having some allergy tests done, however I’ve noticed that all grains make me feel lousy these days, I’m still exhausted all the time and have been taking my prescribed iron for 90 days now and the sore on my tongue has never healed instead is getting worse so I’ve visited the doctors and am being tested for celiac disease. To have an accurate test means I have to eat gluten with 2 meals a day for 5/6 weeks which is horrendous. I am beyond bloated, I actually look pregnant again, I feel sick, irritable, headache and constipated and have a constant thirst.
I wish there was another way but I’m assured this is the only way, it’s crazy.
I might put myself through this and get a negative result and then go back to my gluten free life anyway and feel better.
With all the modern medicine available it’s seems bizarre that for people who her gluten intolerant or have celiac disease they literally have to poisen themselves to get a result but in other ways the modern medicine and surgery we have access to is so incredible, I really am grateful to all the nurses and doctors working so hard for all the people around the world who need them, just like my Mum yesterday.
Day 5 without a drink
I missed the sun rise today as I enjoyed a lie in instead but I’ll do my yoga practice soon. Something else I am grateful for finding.
Here’s a autumnal pic from a recent walk in my favourite place, the arboretum.