That’s how I feel, like the tin man from the wizard of oz, ceased up, stiff and achy. I have a bad posture and it effects my whole torso and neck. I try to correct how I stand, walk and sit, I do stretches have regular massage or chiropractic treatments. I even have a shoulder strap to remind me every time I slip forward but non of it helps long term.
This morning I went for a treatment and it was great, it hurts but feels great all at the same time. My masseuse has been away for a couple of years and I missed her dreadfully as no one can compare. So today, day 50 I treated myself to an hour long session of blissful pain!
We are a house of coughs and sneezes this month, just one cold after another which is really annoying seen as we are treating ourselves and nourishing ourselves better than ever.
So whilst I am impressed that I have made it to day 50 the half way point and thought I would feel elated I just want the sofa and a blanket.
It’s a big week for our eldest s she is starting pre school on Wednesday which she will of course be fine with and enjoy, I on the other hand am a bag of nerves as I never left her before. It’s more of a big deal for me than her.
We have a social thing tomorrow where everyone will be drinking so that will be interesting although I think I am going to be fine as long as they are serving coffee. For some reason my caffeine consumption has gone through the roof, I drink coffee all day long now when I used to just enjoy a cup or 2 at breakfast. Just another thing to worry about!
I’m still not sure what will happen on day 101, when I started this it was never my intention to give up for good but I really am not missing it at all so I’m pondering moving the goal post to a year of sobriety. That will take me up to my 40th birthday, mmmmm. I had planned my 40th birthday already and it included wine tasting and selecting the wine to be enjoyed with dinner at the restaurant with friends and family. Right now though I’m thinking more yoga retreat and green juices.
Well done to you to if you have reached the 50th day and beyond, keep it up, I’m going to. Xx